Illusion Precision

Illusion Precision 

(Sleep Paralyses)

I was talking, smiling, chit chatting and taking a walk with my friend when unexpectedly she started pushing me down, off the path, in some deep opening near by. And then it was not funny. I felt the darkness taking over. The pressure was too much to take. I knew I was dreaming and I had to wake up no matter what or else I’d be stuck in the deep sleep and then what happens…well who knows! After much fighting with my subconscious self I managed to wake up. I opened my eyes and saw my friend sitting next to me. Looking at me and smiling. Vision was a bit hazy as I looked around and saw my dog on the floor to left of my bed, looking up, starting at me and going back to sleep.

But I could still feel the pressure. I was not sure how to get out of it so I tried to yell, make a sound or move my hands but I was paralyzed. Except for my eyes I could not move a finger. And then it started. 

An invisible force was keeping me still, forcing me to go back to sleep. I started chanting ‘Om Namah Shivay’ in my heart but even that became impossible which is kind of scary to think of now.

So I gathered all my power and forced myself to get up. Last I heard were voices like a few men were chanting in some other language; but it faded as I forced myself to open my eyes and finally... I was up.

It was scary. Who experiences something like this at 3pm!?

It took me a few seconds to realize I was dreaming in a dream (like 2 levels of dream; dream and its sub level) and was paralyzed in my sleep. ‘Sleep Paralyses’ as I (now) know it.

Everything that you see and experience during this time is so real that it becomes impossible to not believe that it really did not happen.

So when I thought I was absolutely awake; I had just gotten out of a sub-dream but I was very much sleeping and it took me another 15-18minutes to get out of the main dream. It’s kind of difficult to explain. (Imagine and relate it to the movie- Inception – yes I did experience it! Kind of feels amazing now that I’m thinking about it and writing.)

It was my first experience after I realized what I had been experiencing over so many years. I don’t even remember the age when this started to happen.

I was at a friend’s place during my vacations when I heard her elder brother telling someone that he feels some kind of pressure and it becomes impossible for him to move even though he (thinks) has completely woken up. And I thought, damn, I have been experiencing it for sometime now. I was 17 then, so I’m guessing I must have been 15-16 when it started with me. (Oh and I just turned 25.)

My friend, her brother and their mother connected it to something supernatural; spirit and ghost. Obviously! Anybody would have. I did too (in a way) and that is how I ended up finding about ‘Sleep paralyses’.

My last experience (when I didn’t know what it was) was very scary. I was asleep in my mother’s room, lying on my stomach and that is how I usually sleep. That day I was lying on my stomach, facing right side, right leg folded and arms under my chest.)

Obviously I was dreaming and etc, and then something happened and I remember waking up. I was walking out of her room, entering our dining area when suddenly I felt like there was some invisible force starting to push me down. I felt my legs getting heavier. And then there was this unexplainable darkness as I would define it, taking the control of my body starting from my feet, moving up. And I was fighting it real hard. I had put all of my energy and power to fight it and gain control of my body. It had completely taken over and the only remaining part was a small patch including my right eye and the forehead and finally I opened my eyes. I didn’t move. I lay there for a few seconds realizing and at the same time making myself sure of what just happened. It was a dream. All of it was a dream, just too real. And that is when I noticed that I was covered in blanket and the only part uncovered was my right eye and forehead. (Remember I was lying on my stomach, facing right side.)

That experience was really scary. I decided to search it online. Exactly the way these characters in some scary, psycho-thriller movies go online and type ‘husband not husband anymore’ or ‘Saarne institute for mentally sick’. I typed ‘pressure while sleeping’ and a few more key words. In no time my search showed ‘n’ number of sites. All stating and emphasizing that I’m probably in an unimaginable scary situation. Whatever I am going through and experiencing is a part of some paranormal thing. As per all the stories, mythologies, religions, I was experiencing what they stated as ‘spirit taking control of body’. Now that was definitely scary!

Imagine every site and available text is about the same story. Some spirit sitting on your chest trying to gain control of your body. I mean what the hell!

Now I am not much of a religious person but a thing like this will definitely confuse you. But I decided to look more into the matter. I knew for everything, science has a different reason and meaning. And then after hours of reading and surfing I found out about it.

I suffer from ‘Sleep Paralysis’. When I realized what it really was, I kind of felt happy. I mean not everybody experiences this ‘so-real’ dream or whatever people may call it. It’s like one of those things you must experience else you’re definitely missing something. This is so rare. It was really disappointing for me when it stopped strangely after I read the scientific explanation of it. But finally, after 6-7months of that discovery, I experienced it again. It’s really funny how I am getting addicted to the strange fear that develops while it happens. It must be like swimming with sharks in open water. You think you know it all but there is always a risk. Unexpected changes and out of control situations. In my case the risk is…what if the stories are true? What if it really is about ‘some spirit trying to gain control’!